I’m not angry with the other person, I’m angry with myself, for letting them inside my mental fortress again.

I promised myself, after the last one, that I wouldn’t do it. I have my closed circle of friends and I let somebody new inside and they’ve hurt me really badly and while I’m upset that they’ve done this to me, I cannot explain the anger inside me at this moment.

I’m angry that I’ve let somebody else into my life who I loved and cared about.

My trouble is I’m too trusting a person. I can’t help myself it’s in my nature, and the after last time I vowed I’d never let anybody make me feel like this.

I have let myself down and that is why I’m angry!

Especially angry because I trusted this person and yet here we are again with me feeling betrayal and to some extent helpless with my emotions!

Never again will I let anybody else into my life in that way again!

My trust is to be earnt these days and not given freely.

I’m also really angry that I neglected my best friends for this person and there’s a consequence I never feel like I have to make amends to my other friends because I push them aside for this person. And that also makes me feel really sad!

But you know what the really stupid thing is that if they called me right now I’d probably still speak to them!

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Just because you’re angry
and i’m the nearest person
Don’t take that anger out on me
An innocent party I be

Because you’re alone
I do not have to wonder why
Been dumped again
But your angry and not sad

I really do not understand
How you think its ok to rant and rave
It’s not my fault
It was Andy, Steve, Mark or Dave!

Screaming and shouting
All bloody day
Don’t take it out on me
It’s just not fair as its nothing to do with me

At the end of the day
I’m just a friend
And i don’t deserve
The angry things you’ve said to me

Not putting up
with the shit you give
Just turning around
and walking away

The problem is
You’re just too angry
Every single day
Screaming and ranting as if in a rage

The more you scream
and shout about nothing
The further that this person
Walks away

You know now
That I no longer care
Our friendships over
Not dealing with your anger any more

No longer will I listen
To you shout and scream
Don’t really care
That’s me finished, I’m done, I’m out

It’s not fair on myself
I’m not hearing you out
For no longer will I hear you
Be a listening post

No longer will I tolerate
the screaming and the rage
this friendship is over
and I am turning a page

I tried to tell you
But you didn’t listen
Given you notice
For you I’m dismissing

Our friendship is over
Letting you go
Tired of your anger
Wont listen no longer

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