I’ve been on female hormones now for 6 years, and my own regime and over the past six years have been various drugs and the last year has been different.

Now my medication is beginning to kick in fully and I’m on Estrogen patches 150mg patches every three days and also Prostrap.

So be aware of what to expect.

Don’t think this is going to be a walk in the park!

The mood swings that I am experiencing over the past 12 months have been nothing short of mind-blowing and I don’t mean mind blowing in a good way either.

I’ve got really bad brain fog and I also my brain is flip flopping between moments of elation to really bad anxiety and really bad panic attacks.

These as i get towards the end of the Prostrap, which is a testosterone reduction drug injected once every 3 months, become very severe and cause me such mental anguish that it affects my very ability to think clearly. So much so its making me not care whether I’m alive or not, this is not suicidal thoughts but just that I couldn’t care less.

My mood suffers, my health suffers, my relationship suffers, my work suffers and I just don’t care about anything, including myself.

This has gotten worse in the last 12 months and this month is the worst yet!

I’m due my injection in 2 weeks and my mood is low.

I had a massive panic attack this morning and things I’m really good at, I couldn’t do, I couldn’t cope with the pressure of my mixing music as I practised DJing and I ended up crying on the decks.

My partner and I argued over something really trivial but it was a big deal to me.

I’ve removed myself from everyone today and I’m sat with only my brain and thoughts, which to be honest are so muddled and foggy I’m struggling to think about things, process things and order my life.

I’ve written this, as I need to get it out of my head, and for the rest of the day I will be sitting in a dark room being vacant!

The hormonal changes to my body are fantastic but the mental changes are next level shit and something I wasn’t aware of when I started in this journey.

My partner says that she can relate to how feel as it’s like being around someone with bad PMD, she’s understanding to a point but I’m not my usual happy self at the end of month, three weeks before my next prostrap injection.

It’s not all frilly dresses and nice frocks, there is a down side!

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As you may have read I’ve been prescribed Prostrap as a testosterone blocker to help with my transition and I’ve been on it now for over 6 months. This is administered as a quarterly injection.

But….

I’m so emotional at the moment that I’m crying at the very slightest things and several times this week I just spontaneously burst in to tears for no reason. Take this morning, I had a bad dream and woke up fine, next thing I know I’m sat on the edge of the bed sobbing uncontrollably and it took my partner nearly half an hour to calm me down.

Completely irrational and for no reason whatsoever!

My anxiety is also next level at the moment and on one or two occasions I’ve been so wracked with anxiety that I cannot function until I’ve calmed down.

The other night was so bad I laid in bed and curled up and shook for nearly an hour.

Then this evening I witnessed the aftermath of two accidents. One on the M6 and another on the M62 and the graphic images of the vehicles, especially from the accident on the M62, set me off again with anxiety and uncontrolled crying when I got home and I sobbed in the car and then sat on the floor in the house.

I have to speak to my prescribing agent as this only seems to occur on month three after the injection of Prostrap.

I’ve no history of having such bad anxiety attacks but have suffered from depression in the past.

I know that anxiety and emotional outbursts on Prostrap as known side effects but these are bad this quarter.

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