Today, the 5th of September is my 6 months on hormones anniversary. Where does the time go as it doesn’t seem like 5 minutes since I wrote about starting hormones!
So, whats happened in the past 6 months?
Well, let’s start with the mental changes first.
Mental Changes
I now cry at the drop of a hat, I was a bit of a cryer before and would cry when a character died in a film especially the animals but since starting hormones I only need my own thoughts and i’m off!
I am also more vocal when something bothers me and prior to starting Estrogen, I would bottle things up. Now after 6 months on Hormones, I don’t do that and will tell people if they have said something which has annoyed me or upset me. Straight out.
Physical Changes
These are much more noticeable than the mental changes and the physical changes have been somewhat as I was told before I started my transition by friends who are further down the line to me.
My body shape has started to change and my waist has got thinner while my hips have started to fill out. I know this because my size has changed and as I measure myself every month I can see this.
I’ve started to develop breasts now and this has been the most noticeable change as after 2 months my nipples occasionally hurt. Now they ache all the time and you can actually see I have the shape of breasts emerging. I am very happy about this and I’d be happy whatever shape they turn out.
For the first time, I have cleavage!
My skin is getting softer and the need to shave is reducing. I only shave my legs once a week and my facial hair is receding from my chin backward. This is helped by the facial waxing, which hurts really bad, but at Pride, I didn’t have to shave for 3 days which was a massive relief.
My testicles have reduced in size still further and I would now say they are 1/3 of the size they were when I started on this journey. Again this is something I like as I’ve never liked the bloody things! They don’t ache all the time now either!!!!
My sex drive is now almost completely zero (which makes the next few sentences seem ironic). I get the very occasional arousal but have no desire to do anything with it.
One thing I have really struggled with over the past few months is an attraction to men.
I’ve been down in the village quite a bit over the past few months and the last time I was there I was one of only 5 women in an environment with 150 men. I admit I found it a bit intimidating at first but then I got talking to people and I met a few men who I can see are nice men and I actually found myself flirting with them.
Even one of my friends told me, “Oh my God Mikki, where you chatting him up” and I had to think for a minute. I was! Apparently, though he has a boyfriend.
Honestly, my mind disappears to another place sometimes recently!
It’s not just a mental attraction either. I honestly wanted these guys to do things to me! Maybe it was the alcohol but I’m still attracted to one of them now!
Overall I am really happy with my 6 months on hormones and the progress I’ve made. I sometimes forget to take them though and when I was ill with Coronavirus and the Norovirus I really struggled to take them as I was really really ill. I’m also struggling to sleep if I take them before bedtime and have had to alter my application times. The nasal spray makes me sneeze and I can taste it for up to an hour if I’m laid down.
The next milestone is 12 months!