The past 2 days have been hard and it’s made me realise that how far I’ve come is zero in the eyes of the world, even if you think you’ve changed massively in 6 years.
First off, I’ve been on my transition journey now for over 6 years and have been on HRT for 5.
Secondly, I look at photos of myself pre-transition and don’t recognise that person anymore but all this can be immaterial in the eyes of the world.
Thirdly, you have no control over how others see you or how they address you!
Why, what’s made me feel like this?
In the past two days I’ve been misgendered 4 times in less than 24 hours and it’s smashed my confidence back down to zero.
Admittedly last night, one of the times I was called “sir”, was when I was in my scruffs when I popped out to get stuff from the local convenience store but the other three times I was in full makeup and a fucking dress!
One of the joys, nay! downsides, of being transgender I suppose is that you have to accept how the world sees you, not how you see yourself!
My girlfriend, as ever, is hyper supportive but today I feel like shit and have had a cry for the first time in quite a while!
C’est la vie!
We move on. Tomorrow is another day!