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It’s nearly three months since my last injection of Prostrap and this month’s hormone change is really fucking my head up, emotionally! As you may have read I’ve been prescribed Prostrap as a testosterone blocker to help with my transition and I’ve been on it now for over 6 months. This is administered as a …

It’s true I don’t love me And I think that’s clear For other to see From afar and near My current mode Is one of self hate Don’t like myself Oh, but then, wait I look in the mirror And see a sad soul And one who puts up With a self sense of being …

Over the past month, I’ve noticed the noise in my brain has increased massively as the Leuprorelin I’ve been taking has lessened in effect. For those that don’t know Leuprorelin is a testosterone blocker which inhibits the male hormone from being created in your body. This drug is also used to slow down the advance …

I sometimes wonder What it would be like To have no emotions Or intelligence, to light A life so mundane No strive or drive Just all I knew Was that I was alive I sometimes wonder What it would be like To have no passion too Only a drive to get up, everyday And just …

After my post about getting my prescription fulfilled from Gender GP and what is going wrong with Gender GP, I today out of the blue received my prescription and a link for payment from my chosen pharmacy. This is a little bit confusing because I filled in the original for on the 28th March, again …

Anxiety, it’s suffocating me, Every waking moment besieged, Eyes flutter open, there it looms, A relentless presence, sealing my doom. Anxiety, it’s suffocating me, Lying in bed, trapped in dread, To rise or to stay, the dilemma weighs, A prisoner of my own anxious maze. Anxiety, it’s suffocating me, Mind racing, thoughts in disarray, A …

I first started using Gender GP nearly 4 years ago, but recent service changes have left me thinking “Gender GP, what is going on?” This is because your recent service is absolutely appalling. Let me just explain that I have been using Gender GP for all my gender service up until 12 months ago when …

Yes, I know I’m transgender and some people might not understand or grasp what’s happened in my life to get me to where I am today. And, let me be brutally honest, I’m not asking or expecting people to accept me or understand my life or who I am anyway! Live and let live is …

The heterosexual community has no idea about trans orgasms, however the news and media like to speculate and pass judgement on who it feels to orgasm or experience orgasms as a transgender person. They ultimately will never know as they are not transgender people and they know not what hormones and blockers do to bodies …

It’s so nice to work somewhere completely accepting and this past month that’s what’s happened. I’ve been working on a building site over the past month sorting out the cabling, fibre optic connections and WiFi and after working on other building sites in Leeds, Liverpool and especially darn sarf, I was wondering what I was …

Its just a dog so, I'm told by folk who don't know what's in a heart of gold a dog gives you comfort an unconditional love and when they pass its gone, vanished for good It's just a dog I hear you say you'll get over it you just need a few days however my …

There’s not many people Who really like you You come across as an arsehole You really do do But me I think You are actually ace But I’d never say this Direct to your face You know that you make me Laugh very hard With your cheesy jokes About blocks of lard The last time …

I know I haven’t written about my gender journey for quite some time but this is something those wishing to pursue a gender change on their medical records need to be aware of as it might cause you problems and that’s changing your NHS medical number. On the 23rd November my primary care provider, which …

I’ve been having many conversations with my friends over the past couple of weeks about “The great British Toilet versus Transgender debate” and the rights the government’s plans to change the law to define gender and how we as British people use the toilet! The UK Government, or more precisely the Tory party, are pursuing …