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Since the Supreme Court's ruling back in May – you know, the one about how a "woman" is defined as the gender assigned at birth in the For Women Scotland Ltd v The Scottish Ministers case – it's really got me thinking. So as always I've been doing a ton of reading and trying to …

The mobile phone Sometimes leaves me on my own I sit with others And how I try To get there attention I just might die We sit and stare At the little screen nobody talks you know what I mean Conversation draining And love is waining Because we stare At the rectangular glare Waking in …

I don’t know why I just want to cry The joy I felt. Just yesterday Gone aray Gone away My mood has taken A massive dive Dont know why I just want to cry I’m sorry to those Around me now I know I am a moody cow But my head and heart Feel weird …

The past 2 days have been hard and it’s made me realise that how far I’ve come is zero in the eyes of the world, even if you think you’ve changed massively in 6 years. First off, I’ve been on my transition journey now for over 6 years and have been on HRT for 5. …

My name is Mikki, Now you know it, Better known as, The transgender poet, These little words, That come from my head, About my life, As the metaphorical Reviled, living dead Transphobic hate, Getting every day, Wished it all, Would go away, But the media spouting, Myths and lies, Spoiling all, Our transgender lives The …

It’s nearly three months since my last injection of Prostrap and this month’s hormone change is really fucking my head up, emotionally! As you may have read I’ve been prescribed Prostrap as a testosterone blocker to help with my transition and I’ve been on it now for over 6 months. This is administered as a …

It’s true I don’t love me And I think that’s clear For other to see From afar and near My current mode Is one of self hate Don’t like myself Oh, but then, wait I look in the mirror And see a sad soul And one who puts up With a self sense of being …

Over the past month, I’ve noticed the noise in my brain has increased massively as the Leuprorelin I’ve been taking has lessened in effect. For those that don’t know Leuprorelin is a testosterone blocker which inhibits the male hormone from being created in your body. This drug is also used to slow down the advance …

I sometimes wonder What it would be like To have no emotions Or intelligence, to light A life so mundane No strive or drive Just all I knew Was that I was alive I sometimes wonder What it would be like To have no passion too Only a drive to get up, everyday And just …

After my post about getting my prescription fulfilled from Gender GP and what is going wrong with Gender GP, I today out of the blue received my prescription and a link for payment from my chosen pharmacy. This is a little bit confusing because I filled in the original for on the 28th March, again …

Close to Penzance, by the sea There's a beautiful island, just off the beach By a place called Marazion Sits an island paradise Atop which sits a Castle It does look really nice Across a causeway, access you will get And if the causeway is flooded, Catch or boat or get real wet But when …

Anxiety, it’s suffocating me, Every waking moment besieged, Eyes flutter open, there it looms, A relentless presence, sealing my doom. Anxiety, it’s suffocating me, Lying in bed, trapped in dread, To rise or to stay, the dilemma weighs, A prisoner of my own anxious maze. Anxiety, it’s suffocating me, Mind racing, thoughts in disarray, A …

I first started using Gender GP nearly 4 years ago, but recent service changes have left me thinking “Gender GP, what is going on?” This is because your recent service is absolutely appalling. Let me just explain that I have been using Gender GP for all my gender service up until 12 months ago when …

Yes, I know I’m transgender and some people might not understand or grasp what’s happened in my life to get me to where I am today. And, let me be brutally honest, I’m not asking or expecting people to accept me or understand my life or who I am anyway! Live and let live is …