I have a lot to think about as I transition and the further I get down the line the more questions I get, which ultimately require answers.
My friends are fab and although they accept me for who I am they also ask me questions about what I am doing and the journey ahead. Sometimes they ask questions I havent even thought about like a second conciousness.
I welcome their questions as they make me think and also seek out questions and answers about what lies ahead.
Just this week I’ve sat with my friend and discussed what I am going to do and whether I fully transition. “What happens to your bits, and do you really want a pair of boobs?”
I’ve spoken to my counselor and there is a large number of options available to me on the road ahead. I’ve thought long and hard and I know that I want to be female, although I know I will never truly be, it’s that outwards view that I need to peruse for my own mental stability but I know that no matter what I do I truly can never be female.
The look to me is important and presenting as a female is what I seek.
I know thay I’ve only just started down this road and my doctor has been supportive and I’ve had numerous tests both physically and mentally, and I know there will be many more.
Untimately, I’m sure there will be loads more questions from medical professionals and my friends but until I reach those points on my life I cannot answer questions I do not yet know, or yet have even thought about.
I have many friends who are at certain points on the same road less travelled but their journey is different to mine, some drastically and others similar. Again their experiences being questions and answers but what they explain to me and their experiences are duly noted and help me as I persue my life.
Also their companionship fills my heart with joy, love and friendship which at this stage on my life has been extremely welcome. The trans community have welcomed me with open arms as have the LGBTQ+ people I meet on a daily basis.
The village in Manchester and Leeds have been awesome to me and even when I go out alone or am sat waiting for friends, those in the village make sure I am not alone.
I know I have a lot to think about and the more I think about it the more questions I need answering.
I wish there was a big book of transitioning which was written just for me but until that time I need to write my own story.
Watch this space!
