Over the past few months I’ve really been struggling with my emotions, I let someone in and they broke my heart and it really put me in a tailspin. So much so that not only did I crash and burn but I struggled to get out of the wreckage alive.
About 2 months ago, I started getting feelings for someone who was very affectionate towards me, someone who I thought felt the same way about me. We’ve been friends for some time and their attitude towards me changed, showing me more affection, more touchy-feely, and lots more positive comments.
Turned out I was wrong and after they’d got what they wanted out of our friendship (or maybe didn’t get what they wanted), overnight just switched me off. I should have listened to my friends, a number who pulled me to one side and said “Something not right here” and “I dont like them”
Prior to this, I’d get messages all day long, and then all of a sudden, boom. Gone!
Phone calls initially rang out and then muted. Whatsapp and messenger blocked.
Why did I let someone in and then, why did they just walk out of my life without a second thought!
I let my guard down for 5 minutes and someone nipped in and made me feel special for 5 minutes but turns out it was only my lifestyle they wanted. By that I mean, night/weekends away, nice hotels, nice food, and free drinks.
I should have seen the signs when they never bought me anything, not even around or drinks, and gratitude was never shown, but that’s not the first time that’s happened to me!
Isn’t the first time but it will definitely be the last. From now on, Bitch with heart of stone!
My defenses are rebuilding, my defenses have been re-inforced and I won’t be letting anyone in again.
Lesson learned, no more tears, pick myself up and onwards and upwards!
If you read this, you will have to face me as the social circle we move in is very small and remember who’s the diva!